No, I am not talking about sex. No, I am not talking about pain - not directly at least. I am just talking about missing someone so much, that you can feel it starts to hurt, that it starts to feel like your heart is just gonna get smaller and smaller, until it turns into something of the size of a ping-pong ball (or maybe disappear, who knows?).
I think 1 week, 4 days, or just ONE day, never felt that long before. I just can’t stay a couple days without you, without us. It just feels like something is missing, like part of me is just not there. And it hurts a little. I know it’s not your fault, I really do. I know that if you could, we would see each other every single day, or at least once every 2 days, but we sadly can’t. And I would do anything to change that.
If I only knew… I would’ve studied harder, I would’ve done a lot of things differently, I would’ve approached things differentially at the first place. Maybe if I did so, we could see each other every single day like most of the couples do, and like we always wanted to. Maybe, we would not miss each other that much like we do right now, having to wait almost a week to meet again. Who knows?
Does it suck? Yes! Does it hurt? Sometimes. Do I miss you? Hell yeah, I do! Would I change something, anything, related to you?…… I don’t think so. Maybe that’s just the way things have to be. We need to have patience for every little thing, and for everything that we always dreamed about. I can honestly wait for a month, a year, even 2 years for most of the things, but just don’t let me stay a whole week without you, I just can’t handle it. It’s just too much (or should I say not enough?).
It just hurts, and you have no idea how much.